Once Upon a Time...

                                                                  My sweet son age 13!

Once upon a time I could trust him. What happened to his love for his precious son? My son took the day off school today to go be with his father, and here it is 1:00 pm and he is still a no-show! The ex was in the hospital and hasn't seen our boy for 4 weeks now. I am officially pissed! I married this person when I was just barely 18. I had no idea he would be bipolar or that I would become a mom just 11 months later. When we were young everything seemed so perfect. He showered that boy with love! He played with him, took him places, gave him little presents. Then came the illness. If only I had been smart (I would tell myself) I would have gone to college instead; known that something was wrong with his personality. We divorced when my baby was almost three. He still continued to see him, but I could see the mood changes more prevalent now. The ex remarried (as did I) and he still seemed to be a good father. Then "it" happened about 2 years ago. His wife left him, and the downward spiral gripped him. He would disappear for days at a time, come back, apologize, cry, beg. I can't let this go on much longer, what can I do? My son is 13 now and this is just so unfair! I wish things were different, but I can't trust him and he won't stay on his meds...